Freedom VS. Responsibility VS. Self-Guilt-Tripping

I feel somewhat lost without my boys...and yet I love the freedom of being only responsible for me. Of course the ex and I talk to collaborate on issues that come up regarding our boys. 

We had a recent talk about communicating better for the boys' sake, and that seems to have been a positive turning point for how we get along...so far. It's still early, so we'll see.

I have not been as productive this week while the boys have been with their mother as I would have liked. It's been a sort of leisurely productivity. A part of me thinks it was well deserved, another is laying on the guilt trip for how much more I could have gotten down. Chill out, guilt-trip self. I still have two days, in which I can get a lot of stuff done. Jeez.

Still no follow up interview phone call, but I feel one has to be coming. 

In any case, I miss my boys and can't wait to see them again. We get a nice, long 3 day weekend together. Working on some fun plans and activities.