Another Cover Letter Sent: Boring, But Keeps My Mind Off Missing My Boys

It hasn't even been a full day, I get them back Sunday (thanks to the new custody arrangement), and yet I still miss my boys like crazy.

At the same time, I could really use the break. A weird, conflicting emotion. Part of me even wishes I could got more time to myself.

The plight of all introverts, I would guess.

But I am really glad they are getting some time with their mother. (Weird mental shift of thinking of my wife as "their mother".) One of my sons, especially, was really missing her. I worry a few days won't be enough time for him. But all I can do is be there for him, provide lots of love and encouragement, and help him work through his emotions (but also allow them and validate his feelings...not teach him to bury them away).

The boys have a very strong emotional attachment style. They are handing everything extremely well. I am so very proud of them.

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Got another job application off today. This one is a bit further away from my wife. She may balk at that, assuming I get it. I am also unsure about taking my boys further from her. But it is a great fit for me. And also a good deal closer to my family and closest friends. 

I am pretty isolated in the town I live in now. It's a shitty, smaller town. Not the kind of pace I am accustomed to, and I just don't feel I "fit" here at times.

And I definitely need a support group if I am going to do the single-dad-raising-twin-sons thing.