Dear Life Line: It's Not You, It's Me

I feel terrible. It just kind of happened. 

But I'm seeing someone else. 

I started a new blog, and we've kinda been spending a lot of time together. 

I know, I know...you were there for me when no other blogs were. And, yes, our relationship sort of allowed me to open me up and experiment with different blogs. 

In truth, we have been drifting apart for quite some time now. I think you were in a bit of denial about this. But we have been seeing less and less of each other. 

The time we did spend together, especially in the beginning, was sincerely special to me. I mean it. I'll never forget it. You were a lifeline...at a time that I really needed one. But it's time for me to move on. 

Shhhh. Shhhh. It's OK. Now...wait...no. Please don't cry. 

We can still see each other. I don't know if I will even be able to fully commit to just one blog. Our relationship will just be....different. 

This is still the place where I can be more unfiltered. More myself in ways. You bring that out in me. How special is that? 

Fuck. See? I mostly like will not be swearing on my new blog. 

Also, I can still talk to you more candidly about my divorce, being a single father, etc. Things I can't do on my new site. 

No, you can't meet this new blog. Sorry. For us to work, I have to keep you both separate to occupy different parts of my life. That way, you both fulfill an important niche for me. 

I know, I am coming across as just me, me, me. But that's what our relationship has been. Let's be fair though; I did put a lot of myself into you as well. I have supported you too. I created you.

Sure. Fine. We created each other. (But I created you first.)

I'll leave you with time to think about...us. If you still want there to be an us. I do. 

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My impending divorce is going well. Thanks for asking. 

We hashed out the very last legal details. Custody, assets, debt, etc. It was a little hard, and it got pretty intense and emotional at times. But also oddly healing in a way. We finally addressed some things about our relationship that helped me to get more of a sense of closure. 

We also kept the courts out of it, which was something we both wanted. For our boys. We could be legally divorced within a month. The finality of that is both a relief and, well, sad. A bit scary even. 

I hope you will be open to talking to me about it. 

I have to go now though. I'll be leaving to pick up my boys soon, and I still need to get the house in order. 

Take care.

Sincerely, 

Jim