Back to Writing: Starting Small and Weighing Options
Writing. Writing. Writing.
2015 was a pretty big year for me, career-wise. This also seemed to mean little to no time spent writing. Which sucks.
But with a big income jump, I will not be teaching an additional online class part time, which equates into much more time I can spend on writing.
And I desperately want to get back into a daily writing commitment habit. If I'm honest with myself, writing is my passion and dream more than anything else.
But another part of me is pulling away from that. I look to keep furthering my career and start a Ph.D. program in the fall. Ugh. I would totally get in. And it is a program specifically for working professionals in Higher Ed., so I could make it work.
But at what cost? What would the potential pay off be?
Where is my line of taking on too much and becoming overwhelmed and exhausted and burnt out. And unhappy, for some future that I hope will be better. While also taking on more debt.
And yet, a part of me really want it.
But I need to write! I hate not writing. And I would like to finally commit to my writing. I have put off doing so my whole life, and...I'm not young anymore. Not old. But not young.
Life...got in the way. Grad school. Falling in love. Marriage. The Great Recession. The birth of my boys. Divorce.
And putting all the pieces back together after things fell apart (part of why I start the Life Line to begin with).
The pieces are now more in place than they have been in a long time. A good job with reasonable stability and opportunity for continued advancement.
About to close on a new home I feel very good about raising my boys in.
My ex and I have come to a really good place in terms of communicating well in order to get our boys' needs met.
I will be pretty busy with new house stuff for the next couple months...and sooo much stuff to do at work. Don't even want to think about that right now.
But today, now. before my boys wake up, I am writing. I have my coffee, and I have my keyboard. When I have my boys with me, writing in the morning is the only way I will be able to make it happen.
I guess I don't have to decide write now. If I do the Ph.D. thing, that would not even start until the fall. I have 8 months to write in the meantime. Hell, I could finish a novel by then.
So I am committing to writing on a daily basis once again. I need a plan to help keep up and persist with this commitment. Start small. Carve out specific time each day.
2015 was a pretty big year for me, career-wise. This also seemed to mean little to no time spent writing. Which sucks.
But with a big income jump, I will not be teaching an additional online class part time, which equates into much more time I can spend on writing.
And I desperately want to get back into a daily writing commitment habit. If I'm honest with myself, writing is my passion and dream more than anything else.
But another part of me is pulling away from that. I look to keep furthering my career and start a Ph.D. program in the fall. Ugh. I would totally get in. And it is a program specifically for working professionals in Higher Ed., so I could make it work.
But at what cost? What would the potential pay off be?
Where is my line of taking on too much and becoming overwhelmed and exhausted and burnt out. And unhappy, for some future that I hope will be better. While also taking on more debt.
And yet, a part of me really want it.
But I need to write! I hate not writing. And I would like to finally commit to my writing. I have put off doing so my whole life, and...I'm not young anymore. Not old. But not young.
Life...got in the way. Grad school. Falling in love. Marriage. The Great Recession. The birth of my boys. Divorce.
And putting all the pieces back together after things fell apart (part of why I start the Life Line to begin with).
The pieces are now more in place than they have been in a long time. A good job with reasonable stability and opportunity for continued advancement.
About to close on a new home I feel very good about raising my boys in.
My ex and I have come to a really good place in terms of communicating well in order to get our boys' needs met.
I will be pretty busy with new house stuff for the next couple months...and sooo much stuff to do at work. Don't even want to think about that right now.
But today, now. before my boys wake up, I am writing. I have my coffee, and I have my keyboard. When I have my boys with me, writing in the morning is the only way I will be able to make it happen.
I guess I don't have to decide write now. If I do the Ph.D. thing, that would not even start until the fall. I have 8 months to write in the meantime. Hell, I could finish a novel by then.
So I am committing to writing on a daily basis once again. I need a plan to help keep up and persist with this commitment. Start small. Carve out specific time each day.
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